First off: I don’t hate all Irish people. When I meet an Irish person, I don’t have any feelings one way or another. Irishness has no moral content for me. But for twenty-five years, I hated the Irish. It’s because the Provisional Irish Republican Army—not an army; a band of alcoholic terrorists—nearly killed my brother…
Muse: inspiration, creative influence, stimulus
May 6, 2016
A muse is what motivates you to create. In Greek mythology, the Muses were the goddesses of inspiration in literature, science, and the arts. They were the daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne. Hesiod wrote that there were nine Muses. Calliope – epic poetry, symbolized by a writing tablet Clio – history, symbolized by a scroll…
Migraine means a recycled post. Sorry!
April 10, 2016
Terrible migraine all day. I can’t think, so I’m going to post something from September 22, 2013. I wrote it before the 2014 Gaza war, which was when the death threats became a daily thing. Wouldn’t it be funny if it weren’t a migraine but actually a cerebral hemorrhage? I’ll know in the morning. Detox…
Use your gift, or it will be taken away from you
February 23, 2016
Why do some stories get to us in ways that others don’t? I shouldn’t be as upset as I am about the death of Cody Bolesta. Maybe it’s because I hit rock bottom two days ago and began making the necessary changes. I know I’ll be all right now, while Cody Bolesta is as dead…
Insight is not its own reward. Buy a book!
February 7, 2016
In 2013 I was scammed out of my life’s savings by a fake publicist named Mike Albee. The reason I couldn’t perceive this is that I have post-traumatic stress disorder and Meniere’s disease. When under stress, I dissociate. It robs me of all insight. Weeks and months pass in what seems like days. Both my…
More evidence that I’m doing what I was meant to do
November 22, 2015
Living for fifty-three years has been incredibly hard. In a lot of ways I never had a life, since my formative experiences robbed me of the ability to have relationships. Last night I had a dream in which God gave me a photo album of the life I should’ve had. I saw photos of myself…
Gratitude will get you through
October 24, 2015
Last night I went to meet my brother Eric and his girlfriend at Los Angeles International Airport (LAX). They had a long layover, so Tim and I picked them up, took them to their hotel, had dinner with them, and then came home. It’s the longest trip I’ve made in four years. I’ve changed completely…
Nausea
June 25, 2015
My nausea prevents me from posting tonight. All the behind-the-scenes folderol having to do with my documentary—Operation Four Little Martyrs: A Hamas Deception that Fooled the World—has wiped me out. Stress is the worst thing for Meniere’s disease. It’s what exacerbates the symptoms more than anything. Every book I published relied on the cooperation of…
Too dizzy for a post tonight
May 24, 2015
Meniere’s disease is incurable, and it causes rotational vertigo attacks. It feels like the world is spinning while a heavy weight is pressing down on you. I haven’t had an all-day attack for years, but today I’m too dizzy to write. Rotational vertigo attacks are triggered by stress. Against my will, I’m beginning to remember…