Thomas Wictor

Archive for the ‘Mighty Thoughts’ Category

Dragonflies and tarantula hawks

My friend the Father Who Dances asked me to please keep writing about what I consider possible signs and patterns indicating that all is well. Therefore, here’s a post about dragonflies and tarantula hawks. This is for you, Father. The last two weeks have been very hard on Tim and me. There’s no specific reason….

 

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The timing should work out perfectly

Dad was terrified of dying. To keep from thinking about it, he did a lot of incomprehensibly destructive things. In some cases Dad’s impact has waned with the passage of time. I’ll get to some of those in a minute. But not only am I not afraid of dying, the timing should work out perfectly….

 

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Power is an addiction

After Scott Thunes alerted me that Mike Albee was a fraud, I began trying to teach myself as much as I could about creating my online presence. My Meniere’s disease prevents me from making appearances or doing book tours. Now I’m up to my neck in social media and online marketing. I’ve discovered that the…

 

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War requires love

On my home page today, I saw a banner ad for Axe deodorant. It had a slogan I hadn’t seen in over forty years: “Make love, not war.” This is silly on so many different levels it’s hard to know where to start, but the most glaringly obvious flaw in this mindless catchphrase from the…

 

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Accepting and letting go

I wrote this August 13, 2013. Mom died exactly two months later. When my brother Eric was here to say goodbye to Mom, he and Tim and I had the most important conversations that the three of us had ever had. I’m very pleased at what an extraordinary man Eric has turned out to be….

 

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A choice I never had to make

As Mom and Dad got more enfeebled, I became obsessed with a scenario that haunted me day and night. First I bought guns to protect my parents, since they were the victims of a home invasion, Mom could barely walk, and Dad kept getting into fights with strangers. But the guns wouldn’t have prevented what…

 

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A critical mass of infliction

August of 1992 to August of 1993 was a terrible year for me. That was the period during which the Cardinal Ghost drove me away. I had a horrible job serving subpoenas and copying medical records with a portable machine, I was hugely overweight, and every evening was a danse macabre with the former love…

 

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It takes more than that to scare me

This short film has been getting a lot of buzz. It’s called Lights Out and is only 128 seconds long. Some people have said it’s the most frightening movie ever made. It takes more to scare me, but I’ll let you be the judge. Personally I wasn’t scared at all. I didn’t even flinch. You…

 

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One of our Playboys is missing

Here’s one the most mortifying episodes of me getting caught stealing. When we lived in Stavanger, Norway, I’d babysit the local foreign kids for extra money. It was very lucrative. One family of clients consisted of a Norwegian father, his American wife, and their little boy. I lived close enough to walk to and from…

 

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I will not submit

The death of my father changed me in fundamental ways. Probably the most significant consequence of Dad’s passing was that it made me aware of how much of my life I’d given over to him. He got what he wanted, regardless of the cost to others. Now that he’s no longer here, you need to…

 

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